Monolog

28/12/2010

song : need you now, lady antebellum

it's raining heavily outside.

and i'm starting to have this caught-up-sad-empty feeling whenever i'm stuck inside my house when it's rain.

feeling lonely more than ever,

even though my mum is right with me in this house.

feeling more at ease when i'm alone in this dark room just staring at ceiling.

but i cant help feeling guilty towards my mom.

this semester break, i think i have been distance and ignoring her more thar i've ever did before,

and its hurting her, because she is more lonely than me.

but i just cant help feeling distress and uneasy around her,

because i am my self,

and i cant pretend to be some loveable, cheerfull-all-about-loving-life girl.

and this rain making me feel more caught-up in this guilty feeling.

just wishing desperately to have someone to turn to,

someone to share with,

just a shoulder to cry on