Deugeun deugeun~!

aigooo aigooo~

every time i see you,

you still take my breath away.

but i can only look you from a far,

and you don't even know that i exist.

you remind me of a character straight out from a manga,or even a korean drama.

and yet,

i'm fully aware that you're just a fantasy,

too far from my reality,

and we are totally not meant to be.

aigooo aigooo~

what the hell am i writing?

What time is it? 2AM!!!!!!!!!!

*screammmmmm!!!!!

ok, i'm going to 2AM showcase on 21st of May.

*screammmmmmm againnn!!!!!

totally looking forward to it, though i'm supposed to be thinking about my finals, and my papers,

yea yea yea.

and yes, i've got 4 paper straight after that weekend,and i haven't study a thing.

* horror screammmm!!!

can't wait to see jo kwon, seulong oppa, changmin oppa, and jiwonnie.

though rite know i'm kinda hating my friend that supposed to go with me to the concert,

and it's ruining my mood for a bit.

yea yea yea, go climb your mountain, it's not like i'm forcing you to go with me!

stop making me feel like it,

and i wish you got a very large pimple inside your nose that will hurt like crazy!

gae-tong!

argh, i really hate him right now,

got to gulp down a lagre cup of milo ais first

Take care,

Love,

Romantic Overdose

Perasaan suka/ sayang/ cinta itu hanyalah satu perasaan yang dipinjamkan oleh Allah s.w.t kepada hamba-Nya.

Jadi bila rasa terlalu suka/ sayang kepada seseorang until your heart feel like bursting,

hanya doa,

and if it's not the one,

perasaan itu akan reda dan hilang dengan sendiri,

nikmat Allah s.w.t.

ni lah yang terjadi bila tengok cerita cinta korea.

romantic overdose.

geliii.ewww

Happy Me

i met u after experiencing some heartbreak,

maybe thats why i was scared to love u,

however, getting to know and to love someone,

how great would it be if you were with me forever.

i wonder do you feel the same when you hear my voice after a busy day

do you also feel like we are together,

every night, when i return home,and if you are there,

all the stress and pain from a long hard day,

i would feel at peace in your arm.

love me..just like this,

as long as your loves stay the same,

you're the only person that i give my all to

i will never waver

although you may feel worried when you think about the future,

don't forget, i love you,

if i were to be with you forever,

i would be happy.

* cant get this lyric out of my head. originally in hangul (korea). this is translation.

dedikasi aku. seperti jo kwon kepada si gain.

Monolog

28/12/2010

song : need you now, lady antebellum

it's raining heavily outside.

and i'm starting to have this caught-up-sad-empty feeling whenever i'm stuck inside my house when it's rain.

feeling lonely more than ever,

even though my mum is right with me in this house.

feeling more at ease when i'm alone in this dark room just staring at ceiling.

but i cant help feeling guilty towards my mom.

this semester break, i think i have been distance and ignoring her more thar i've ever did before,

and its hurting her, because she is more lonely than me.

but i just cant help feeling distress and uneasy around her,

because i am my self,

and i cant pretend to be some loveable, cheerfull-all-about-loving-life girl.

and this rain making me feel more caught-up in this guilty feeling.

just wishing desperately to have someone to turn to,

someone to share with,

just a shoulder to cry on

Best Friend's Engagement

26/12/2010

went out with amir n wan today,

had one of the most fun day of my life.(^0^)

but before that, che am,wan n me went to fatihah's engagement ceremony.

yup, fatihah,

one of my bff eva,

probably the most hugged person by me, maybe more than my mum,lol,

and she is now engaged n will be a wife in 7 months.

OMG!

And i still think of myself as a teenager, still lost in finding my way.

But she looked absolutely stunning and beautifull that day,

so full of love and happiness,

that i wish will be seen on me when my day comes.

after six years together, finally teha and abg fizi will tie the knot.

i still remember like it was yesterday when teha starting to tell us about a guy he meet while chatting named abg fizi.

I'm praying for her to have a beautifuk wedding,

a wonderful marriage life,

and beautiful kids, that would call me aunty cute

lol(^o^)